I tried to get help
I communicated I was hurting
MULTIPLE TIMES

I had EPISODES
Right in front of your face
That doctors have diagnosed
BECAUSE MY BODY AND BRAIN
IS ACTUALLY shutting down

These are the words—
on all the paper work,
I have found.

“Attention seeker”

LIKE I WANT TO LIVE WITH THIS CRAP  
Then Im told to say
“Im fine” at home
Because there tired of hearing me “complain”
Im done..
I’m so done with this crap

I’m about ready to let my body take over..
If my body WANTS
To have tics..
Let that happen
I WONT subdue the seizures
I WONT hide my face
I WONT DENY THE FACT IM NOT OKAY

UNTIL I get the help I NEED
So
Everyone
IVE GIVEN UP
“stopping/ trying—“
To “control”
My body
I will let MY BODY
if it wants that
Cause Ive lost all control
I can’t stop it anyways…

IM NOT
Hurting myself
I DONT
want to die

But Ive given up trying it be “okay”

When I’m ACTUALLY dying on
The outside and inside.

They can SAY whatever the HELL they want
Doctors can say they can’t “find anything”
But I can’t keep “going”
The PATH Im ON right now
To “take control of myself”

When I HAVE NO CONTROL ANYMORE.