it feels like I'm stuck in between the doors of an elevator
I don't want to eat
I have anger issues
i'll never be someones first option
I'm not good enough
my grades are lousy
I'm falling behind
everyone's enjoying parties
while I'm stuck at home
with my favorite TV show
watching the same movie for the thousandth time
but i'm fine
I feel this pressure on my heart
like a barrier is collapsing
I'm the one walking behind the group
I'm the one who sits on the sidelines
while everyone else enjoys their youth
I'm lazy
I'm dumb
I'm crazy
I'm numb
I'm mentally unstable
these little fantasies in my head
keep me from falling a part
but I'm fine
I listen to music to calm down
I'm not a popular person
but not a quiet one either
am I too annoying for you
maybe I should lower my voice
I wish i were smart like the others
I wish I were pretty too
I wish I had gorgeous blonde hair
and pretty blue eyes too
but I'm fine
what if I never find love
what if I don't experience teenage romance
what if I go missing
what if I never get that kiss
what if I'm not normal
like the other kids
but I'm fine
I'm always fine
I'm just fighting a couple tears
I'm fine