I’m alone.
Not completely, but alone.
I simply can’t get rid of
This monstrous feeling.

I hate it,
I feel less than a human when I think of it.
I can’t stop seeing those imaginary signs,
That scream “You’re not needed”.

I try to stay positive:
Smile at people,
Laugh with people,
Support people.

But it doesn’t help.
I’m still alone in a crowd of people.
I’m still alone texting my mate.
I’m still alone when I’m alone.

And I feel like a coward.
I don’t want to ruin other’s mood,
So I do not.
Instead, I ruin mine.