Every time we reunite
my heart beats faster
and my face is flushed
Your texts make me smile
make me feel loved
but the voice in the back of my head
tells me what I wish was not true

I use you when I feel lonely?
Then I realize you cant hold me
from so many miles away

Im scared of what others think
Ive never been
Scared
of what others think
But I feel so strong about us...

You say I'm special and that I make you happy
yet I hurt you over and over again
It makes me want to pull my hair out of my skull
I wish you would tell me how miserable I am

I want to believe you love me
but the people of the past haunt me
I want to be your one and only

I want to be able to say all these things that hurt
what if someone who
Can
hold me
comes along?
I don't want to love you now because I wont
be able to deal with the pain of choosing
But a man who really loved
would not have to choose?
But I know I love you.

I want to know everything you love
I want to make you smile
I want all these things to last
But Im scared I wont make it another mile