What's the meaning if I can live once a lifetime? Things repeat everyday. I can't find myself. Either way, my self ain't me anymore. My self is lost. I keep looking. I isolated all my lovers. Talking to me yesterday, they wouldn't talk to me anymore. I am trying to save my energy, but in the meantime, it's worthless. My mother keeps asking me, "What is with you?" But I say, "I am okay." My therapy isn't helping me anyway. I regret everything i did lately, I can barely walk on my feet.