It's as if whenever I told myself
While in fear and in pain how this has to be the worse it could ever be,
i must have cursed those words aloud.

Because the trembling pain i felt before feels more like a stratch compared to now.

Everything that gave me peace and promise is now a devastating lie
that could not be farther from the truth.

And anything that gave me ease and comfort is now completely demolished.

I dream of not waking up in the morning to relive each day with a different plot line when I know I have to face a reality once more that I can hardly bear.