There are so much things and moments I miss.
I never thought I would look back again.
I guess ,I was to focused on the darkness
and the rays of light  was not enough
for me to stay .The darkness
consumed and disturbed my soul.

Then the present moments
I would not want to trade either .
because of how much I have grown.
I endured for as long as I could
I was just dying inside.
I left behind a big part of me
and now it leaves my soul restless.

I feel like I am stuck in between.
The past and the Present.
God forgive me for I have tried.
The guilt still eats on me ,the moments
I should have been there and the moments
I am still missing is like a heavy fog that
never goes away.

If only I could be in two places at once.
Or split myself in two.
With my soul it is not well
But I will always be thankful.
Nomatter how rocky the road in life.
I now look at the brighter side of everything.