I pushed you away when you got too near,
told you to leave, though I wished you’d stay here.
You asked if I’m fine
I swore I was okay,
but my silence begged you not to walk away.
I made a scene of my sadness and pain,
lit the match, left you holding the flame.
Said you meant nothing, just to confuse
when truthfully, you were everything that I was scared to lose.
I ruined the good so I wouldn’t feel small,
dragged you down just to soften my fall.
You didn’t deserve what I turned out to be
I guess they were right when they said, misery loves company.