if i said you were just another boy,
id be mistaken.
ive made countless pieces of art just trying to portray my sad teenage feelings about you.

ive written many poems.
ive written 4 songs.
and i made a whole piece of abstract art for you.

ive done those all because i had too.

or, so it felt like.

if i dont get my feelings about you out the moment i feel them,
i feel hopeless.
im reminded this is most likely a one-way love.

if i dont get my feelings about you out the moment i feel them,
i feel despair.
im reminded im a chaotic person who doesnt deserve your soul.

i sound dramatic,
i know.

i havent gone for you yet because im scared.

honestly.
..
im scared because youre not just another boy.

the other boys dont talk to me,
the other boys dont look at me,
the other boys dont listen to me,
the other boys dont make me laugh,
not the way you do.

youre not just another boy to me,
youre the only one i want.