tell me, truthfully,
did you really even care?
say it with your chest.

..

it felt like you were never there.

tell me, truthfully,
did you ever really hear me?
my weeping and self-doubt..
i know you never paid a thought.

i cried over you.

i exhausted myself for you.

i contemplated everything.

..

but i did it for you..

maybe it was me,
******* up and wrecking things.
i know i was broken,
i still am,
but you never tried to fix me.

im so sorry,
you probably didnt even care,
why should you have?

it was my fault all along.