should they sterilize you upon joining up ?
swipe that ability
             when they hand you a rifle ?
maybe they should stable your stability ?
snap up your identity
put it aside for safe keeping ?
file it under 'f' for 'family' or 'forsaken' or 'foreigner'
or 'forgive me'
send you out disconnected
       with a clean bill of obedience  and immorality
and if you make it back  
         you may retrieve those earnings
and then they can turn you loose
      drafted  out  of the military
perhaps then   
after a psych evaluation
  and a tally
    you can reapply
      for your right to fertility?