curse words were something i was always scared to say.
the lump in my throat every time i tried, the ghost hand covering my mouth at every attempt;
it always felt like something was choking me no matter how hard i tried to do so
but i mean, it’s a good thing, right? because it’s supposed to be bad.

sometimes though, i wish i could.
it would be nice to be able to curse out loud in liquified anger or rage.
but everyone says this is a blessing for me
because as i said, it’s supposed to be bad right?

if it does treat me like that though
then i’m guessing those three words are curse words too.
because every time i try to slip it out of my lips, i just can’t.
if this is the case, are curse words truly a bad thing
if it means having to bear the sight of you saying it to someone else before i could
when i waited and waited for you for what seemed like a little longer than eternity?