When someone you truly love dies you are overcome with all these strong emotions like rage and guiltiness.But the one that always wins is sadness.You try so hard not to cry during the day just to go home at night cry uncontrollably a river of sad filled tears. You think of all the good times you two had and then you sink in to an elaphant sized depression.Knowing you can never do those things agin for as long as you live.Every days a struggleit feels as if your dragging two billion pounds behind you.You struggle every day to keep you head held high when it feel as if your sinking in to a black whole of undiscovered territory.You feel so weak almost as if you were carved out of ice. The sadness varies between days.Some days you feel fine others you feel like some one has reached in your chest and yanked your heart out and stomped it to the ground.
ive been mourning the death of my grandparents for what feels like a lifetime. just lately its been heavier. idk why i just cant get over it. cant see life without them.