I've been hiding me
From you
Hiding
Through and through
The agony that I'm experiencing
That has to do with you
And everything around
Lack of any foundation or ground

Why
Though

Why?
No

I don't want to accept it
Bury it
Hide it
Dig a hole fifty feet deep
Throw it down
Bury it underground

But it claws its way back up
A creature with no face
Claws
And no grace

It claws its way back up
Slowly dragging its body
Getting closer
And closer
Close enough to hear it
To imagine its face
And its disembodied voice

I hear the creak of its bones
The shiver of its voice
The crackling of its soul

It emerges
Old
And cold
But not unfamiliar

It has no face
No voice
But I recognize the way it looks
And sounds
More than anything else

It crawls up to my face
Looks me in the eye
And I smell the decay
Of all the rotting memories
That its eaten out of me

My memories linger on its breath
Rot in its gut
Flow through its blood

They're
GONE

When it speaks
It tells me that I'm missing feelings
And peices
And events that impact you
Us
Them
That
This
As it laughs while I curl up
Try to block it out
Try to unsee its face
Unsemell its foul breath
Unhear every memory fading away

Its rot
Its decay

Will it go away
If I also lay down
Become one with it
And let it spread itself in
And through me

Or will it consume me