I forgive like rain, soft and steady, washing wounds clean even when they were carved into me. I pour grace like water into cups that never once filled mine.
I am the open door, the light in others’ storms, the hands that hold, the voice that soothes and yet no one stays to check if I’m still breathing after the healing is done.
Heaven-sent, they say, but even angels fall silent when no one listens to their cries.
I gave pieces of myself to build bridges, mend hearts, carry burdens too heavy for broken backs to hold. But who sees me? Who carries me?
I am not weak no, I’m made of grief and grit, a woman stitched from suffering and stubborn hope. But I am tired. Tired of being the strong one in rooms full of silence when I need saving too.
No one could walk the warpath I’ve walked and still offer love with open palms. No one could break this much and still want to make others whole.
And that’s the tragedy. That’s the ache. Not that I can’t forgive them, but that I forgot how to choose me.