ive realized god has forgiven me
but i struggle to do the same
i reach for the wisdom of solomon
and end up grasping
his sin
my room is quiet
but my soul isnt
silence doesnt mean stillness
ive learned that the hard way
i anguish
what i am learning
to let go of
i am not held
in my own mercy
but i am
held
repentance
is not arrival
its
today
and today
i choose life
even if i whisper it
even if i dont
feel it
yet