when my lips are sewn shut by fate and i can no longer weave my words in the way i always do, i’ll tear them till they’re red and raw unpick every stitch and twisted knot, like the ones inside my stomach when my mind is no longer free and through the blood that’s seeping into my mouth, tasting like the pennies i spent on the pay phone to you, and dry as the air from those summer evenings i spent head out the car window and thinking of you, i’ll speak to you in withered words and a trembling voice, begging to be saved from my endless melancholy and worshiping your eyes in the sunlight