The mere mention of your name triggers me
Your name in the wrong mouthes vex me
And just like me , inside ,
The hate for you , means they love me
But just like me inside , it hides a twisted fantasy

And I hate it . How you seem to move the world around you
How small you are yet how tall you are too
And I now realise as I write my hands away that it’s not you no
It’s all me

The way I speak of you , makes you the beauty they can’t wait to see
In secret I curse you but tell them you’re  blessing to me
My words carry your character and polishes your ego
My eyes hold the light that makes you my hero



My songs bring your charm to light
Making them wonder what in you was worth the fight
How such melodies could be written in your name
When truly I believe they all sound the same

Tempted by something so grand ,
They wish to have a taste , wish to plan my demise
Cause my discourse made you sweet
Yet ever so sour at the same time

And what they want is bittersweet
just how you loved me then swept me off my feet
the light in your eyes , the darkness of your hair
they love what’s contradictory , what makes no sense

cause I made sense of you but that they dont know
they know you through me ,there are sides I didn’t show
knowing you through me is a blessing and a curse
they’ll know the best of you , and they’ll also know about the worse
they’ll see eveything but the mediocre

they’ll understand why you love the sky so much
and why you don’t ressent your father  
they’ll see the love , they’ll see the luck ,
they’ll see me waver

they’ll hear your heart beat through those melodies I sing to bring me peace
they see the beauty of your face through that cold stone stare
they’ll see what made me yours and think somehow it can make you theirs ?
did you belong to me ?that is a secret you’ll never share

but if I were to be true , you don’t vex me ; no
you drive me insane , i think i forgotten you
but truly it’s still the same
they mentioon you and my mind goes rampage
I yearn to leave the room , at the mere mention of your name

I feign not to see the twisted desire in their eyes
you bring out my insecurity : scared to be left behind
i know it’s me , I can only blame myself
but you see it’s just a feeling i can’t seem to shake

An urge for everything and anyhtings take over
as i’m left with nothing but my agony
I think you bring out the worst in me
I think you bring out the best in me