We start today’s session, feet firmly grounded.
Being in the moment, safely surrounded.
“Describe what you feel using weather instead?”.
This feels more gentle,
I let go of the dread.

Then I feel it, I see it, deep in my gut.
Inky sky,
Painful rain,
Gales stealing my breath.

I write down the things that have made me believe
I am worthless, a failure, with low self-esteem.
The beliefs and the facts that all make this stack up
So clear and so blinding, I’m going to throw up.

So I run
I gag, and blood pours from my head
Left shaking and pleading for the relief to be dead.