lately
i’ve been thinking about killing myself.
it’s not something i usually consider,
but i think i may be
broken beyond repair.
nothing seems worth it anymore.
i wish it was.
god,
i wish it was.
but if im never gonna be enough,
why keep trying?
why live with this pain every day
when i could
not.
not live.
i could not live.
im so sorry.
im so so sorry.
i know we banned that word
but i need you to know how sorry i am.
i’ll try to hold on,
try to keep those demons away,
but im getting tired,
and im outnumbered.