I am so conflicted
Why? Why am I so?
I hate this feeling
Why can't I just be contented with what I have right now


Why do I have this mindset?
Why do I always feel that I can get everything I wanted?
Why can't I calm down?
I need help, I do not have self-control.

Is this really the life that I always wanted?
I am drowning myself
I always want more than I have
I am making myself suffer

I have two jobs
I had two men
I had two love
I had two lives

Now that I lost one
I feel conflicted
Am I really deserving of such love
I had the grasp of the love that I wanted
But I cannot let go of the other life I had

Why! Why! Why!
LA, help yourself
Please I am suffering
I am not happy even if I had everything that I need.

I need self control, oh please control
You may have the things you wanted but you cannot even get a grasp of your self
You get it, then you lost it.
And now you're missing it.