Empty
Numb
Heaviness
Can't seem to think less.

Each day im fading
Is anyone listening?

Long nights
Headaches
Cant see through the thoughts
But feeling i will still make it to the stop.
I cant make these loops stop

Scrolling
Binging
Pretending
This isnt living.

Substance abuse,
Doesnt even get me through.
Where is my muse?
A change,
must be made.
I cannot maintain
living in this frame.
When will i finally start
To follow through.

Im sick of my own ways

Excuses,
contemplate
Going insane
What is the point
Of anything
If i just spend my days fading away

Never commit
"Shes A flake"
I know.
Im so tired of being this way
Hating how i live
Feeling shame
In who i am,
Wishing i was different
I want to commit
To me again

I want to jump all in.
Leave all this **** at the door  
find the free spirit within
I will do what best for me,
Even if it takes some pain.
Anything is better,
Than living this way.


change is being made
Surrender
what are you scared of?
Trust
It will be okay
Simple,
not a debate
just need to get out
of my own way
Change is here.
Can't keep running from the girl
locked in here
staring back at me in the mirror

She says,
let go.
Change is here.
No need for fear,
my dear.