If you ever want to love me
I just want you to know
That there is a hole in my heart

When my dad died I didn’t go to the funeral
It wasn’t the pandemic
It was the hole

My younger sister organised everything
I did nothing
When I went back my other sister
Showed me where the grave was
I said God Bless him, and off he went

I went back another time to the grave but I couldn’t find it

If you ever want to love me
I just want you to know
That there is a hole in my heart

And it worries me
How deathly it is
How in control it is