The shadows seem real to me Do I work for the KGB? Why is the sun always following me? If you will just let me be I have schizophrenia Or is it all just make-believe I’m left living with schizophrenic tendencies Trying to live this life-Maybe I’m ready for the next….. I didn’t really wanna die My life is one big mess Take the blade away Away from me before I plunge it deep I’m contemplating suicide but only scratched my cheek Yes, take this blade away from me Before I fall down and black out Agony is all I see as I turn to lash out I promise I’m not afraid of the secrets that I keep I’m left feeling kinda burnt out Their haunting me Like I’m some sort of creep A monster They’re watching me even as I speak My mother believes that I’m a good son She believes she can see past all the horrible things I have done Little does she know I’m not anything as good as her other one The definition of failure I don’t compare to the good son I am the black sheep Always on the run The white ghost of all the horrid things I have done Haunting everything in front of me Made a mess of my life Everything you see Schizophrenia is horrible A disgusting disease In my head there is no room for me A wolf in sheep’s clothing To the sickness I am bound Something is wrong with my head I’d be better off dead Just take the blade away from me Stop the damage already done I’m begging you on my knees Which Version of me do you believe? Schizophrenic catastrophe I’m begging someone to help me please Defeat the ghosts and demons that I see All the pain that lives inside of me I’ve struggled here for so long or maybe I haven’t tried enough I am a freak Afraid to speak All I really wanted was someone to believe Just to give a little **** I have waited here for so long but nobody ever showed up
I have schizophrenia that is inspiration behind this poem. Nothing more nothing less. I really hope you enjoy it. If you do leave some feedback please or if you feel better and different about it leave some feedback, please