i am in a predicament where i cannot be near you in any sense, or i am afraid i will forever be
stuck there, unable to move past you, as you turn and go about your day and life. it is too painful to see the merry-go-round. i fear that if i keep this up, this girl admiring the snow globes on the window front display while it snows outside till the dead of night, i will die cold having missed even the last train that could have taken me someplace sincere and with genuine warmth. it is not because i do not care it is just silent treatments were too painful and i need all of me to survive this world. i need peace where i can find it