God, I’m tired. I’m tired of this Never ending winter. I don’t see spring around the corner.
I had my first kiss last night. I had a lot of firsts last night. I’ll spare You the gory details, And trust me, it got gory.
The fawn meets the bear after Years of only seeing one Through a screen. It’s one thing to feel your Soul being ****** through your School laptop, and it’s an Entirely different thing to Feel the teeth sink into you. Though I have to be honest, Sometimes the pain is heaven.
My friends don’t know me at all. They don’t know how I give Myself away and how I can’t sleep until there’s nothing Left of me but skin and bones. They see the scars from watching My life blood drain, but They don’t say anything.
I try to be present, Try to be thankful. But the grace in my heart has faded and the Flowers in my hair have died. I don’t know what’s left.
I cry out but You’re never there. You let me bleed, You let me hang from the bear’s mouth. How could You?
I don’t need You. I don’t need you. I just need to go to sleep and if I never wake up, That’d be okay too.