When you were born
I was torn
I was a mess, trying to keep it together
I never thought I will be tethered
Yet there was this small bundle I had to feed
I tried to feel normal but couldn’t be
I had people tearing me from you
I wanted to scream and the resentment grew
I had people saying I couldn’t do it
I had people saying don’t do it
I had people watching every move
I focused, I honed, I was determined to prove
I was vulnerable, I was strong
I knew I had to be a storm
To protect you from the world
While you slept oblivious
My world
I tried with all my will to communicate
But people would not hold still
I figured it all on my own
I was not a mother
You made me one
I look back and it stays
I look back and never forgave
I want to put down all the hate
I deserved more
But darling I know I will always have you
I just know
Takes away the pain
Makes me walk away