A cruel night that permits me no sleep The music is indistinct from silence Soon, the sun will be up.
God, blessed. Me with my atheist prayers Agnostic, if you will. Thank you. Al-hamad ul lillahi rabb-ul-Aalameen I spread the prayer mat I kneel with my shorts on With my headphones on With music, with my unwashed feet
I say nothing. I do not weep.
It is just an old ritual. My mother's anti-depressant. She takes those arabic verses Twice a day, with mildly cool water Preferably before meals And after difficult arguments
Me, I Hah.
I get bored. I turn to boys and paints To rage driving and boxing. I dance terribly to myself.
I would drink music if I could.
Cruel daylight tip toes in I wish I could tell them How much I can ache. How much. So much so, however, I do not skip my lectures. I do not fail my tests. Day after day after day
I will zip the crude self open And fix it, tick by tick To pull through one more study session
And God - or God-not if you will - Is just a pseudo-political nuisance now