You were silence in a room full of shouting
And i inhabited the never heard echo role
We were always almost,
Always reaching with hands half open
Thinking that's the only way one survives love
By not holding to tight, and not giving your all
I watched you leave, a broken record of doors closing
A sunset i've never been able to chase,
All a soft glow filled with fading promises
Your shadow seemed to linger longer then you voice ever did
And even now, i swear,
My heart remembers the rhythm of your breathing
More so then it does to me
You had said nothing
When everything in me was breaking apart,
Almost pleading for you to say something, anything
Like a prayer no one believed in,
And yet i placed a smile on my face, god, i always smile anyway
Like a lighthouse, pretending not be drowning
We started to build a home,
But instead of bricks it was out of borrowed time
And acted like we could call that, forever
And how we slept like ghosts
And kissed like we had plenty of years left
I would’ve loved you in all the wrong ways,
If it meant i was able to keep you
I would’ve burned down every part of my being
That could of ignited a fire no water could ever put out
But we were already burnt, smoke clouding our judgement
And i was learning to late that ashes do not come back
Now everytime i smell smoke,
I flinch, because it's something i lost, you
And maybe that is the cruelest part
Not that you’re gone,
But realizing i never really had you to begin with
Not when the match had already ignited
And we just stood as an arsonist, as we watched it burn