first time I ever wrote a real letter
6 pages
ill never send
it holds the truth
mine.
and sending it would likely only benefit me
so ill keep it.
but if you come across this.
I love you.
always have.
always will.
my distorted sense of saving was to our detriment.
I will always want you.
It was always you, even when I lied to purposely push you away.
my doors always open.
im sorry. for everytime ive left. and every bit of pain I caused you.
youre brilliant. strong. beautiful.
I wish things couldve been different.
I wish we couldve really tried.
Id give you forever.
I hope youre happy and if youre not, I hope you get everything you ever wanted, even if it isnt with me.