Life is a crushing void,
an emptiness on my mind.
The loneliness fills me
and completes me,
so much to the point
I don't even need to
commit suicide.

You,
are
a black light
in the distance
I just
want you
to run your fingers
through my well of tears
and actually see me
beyond
the shells
I grew over time.

You can't tell
but when
you love me
through words
you don't
directly say it,
it subtly
makes my soul
so happy.

Like God,
I give you
so many tests
and I thought
you passed them all
before your disappeared.

I write
my "greatest"
works
when I am in love.

I fall so easily,
trying to fight
against the strong currents
before
they roar
and crash onto me.

I suffer
in silence
holding back
the tears
and ****** screams
built up
behind my throat.

The feeling
of being
over consumed
by the pain
every day