you watched me shed a lot of tears
but not a pet of comfort,
was felt here on this injured back
you told the whipper "come forth",
he gave me bruises, scars and wounds
immeasurable pain,
"it happens for a reason"
was all that you had to say.

there was once a time
when I would laugh, smile and cheer,
but of course that was before
your gut feeling led you here.
you were controlled by time
I had to bear your thirty strikes,
the one wish that you had
was to take away my life.

when life handed me a precious gift
you made sure that it slipped,
the one that held my hand
was the reason I'd cut my wrist,
you took her away from me
and that I can't forgive
even to this day I'm unsure
do i really want to live?

everything was good
until your arrival came,
i was happy before you
of course you are to blame,
with you she realized
that i have so many mistakes,
she looked me in the eyes
and said "it has to end, it's fate"

the green leaves of my tree
suddenly became yellow,
falling one by one
foreshadowing my great sorrow,
i would eradicate you
I wish that i was able,
but all i can say is
"you hurt me, April"