"You are a love letter from God" is something I heard said in church from our Pastor Jason King on May 11th. Dedicating Mothers Day for all mothers out there who joined the service. He told us how it can be painful for some people when Mothers Day arrives because some people lose their mom. Some of them don't hold a close relationship with them...
I almost cried that morning because church always makes me feel guilty but I want to be closer to God again. Somehow its like they can see through me and just know I don't hold a very close relationship with someone who should... I cry to God wishing things were better. (I)
I wish I could press restart and be the perfect child for her but even if that was possible it wouldn't matter... Because I will never be enough no matter how well behaved I could be. They never see sunshine, they see dark clouds.