Respect- r e s p e c t- Why can't i imagine even a single person i "respect" that I'd be able to touch? uncle, father, brothers, not one of them i could caress! thus, let us find what i respect- i respect those i fear! i inferior am! who make me QUESTION everything; why not you? honey do i not respect you why? is this why i push you to be assertive, "tough"? for i can not respect one I DO NOT FEAR? and thus i cant touch any of those people BUT let us remyth here- cut the ties that bind- ∞ and now, heres what i respect- and a daily habit it is to engender, dear!- softness, patience, empathy, ability to be held, honest, forthright, NO LIES - well, may be whites!- FEARLESS yet(!) TENDER- able to cry, oh my dear, you do cry do not you? and not only when glugglugglugglug OOPSIES i am drunk let me act the way i would never sober AND THEN blame the behavior on alcohol and then once again get drunk and do it again- BORING!- nay you, you cry intentionally- with intent, with awareness! Yes, a life's work here, to find new modes to respect; and then? eyes touch, smiles shared- and yes, i would like to give them food-- aye, i agree it IS lovely. A new journey. Thanks and Warmth and Hugs.napo