like a headache

a constant buzz

in the back of my mind

depression

saying i'm not good enough

and that i don’t belong

eating away at the joy  

and hope in my life

depression

the endless cycle

everlasting pain

i just want to get better

to be happy

but it won’t let me

the monster in my head

is in control

and no one can stop it

i wish i could

just get rid of it

but it’s been here for a while

and not planning on leaving

instead it makes me feel like i should leave

depression

it leaves sometimes

the scars fade

but it always comes back

and usually stronger

the scars become cuts

fresh and ******

depression

it makes me smile and laugh

all day

until night falls

then i'm alone

the pretty face everyone sees

the happy girl

any part of me

that resembles life

is gone

depression

destroying me

and my will to survive

silent to the world

but horrendously loud

in my mind

depression

no one else can see

the pain it’s causing me

i pretend to be okay

but the monster in my head

is causing me to struggle

and fall

depression