i hate you for not liking me
for the way that you ignore me
subconsciously, i know i'm beat
you gaslight me so subtly

just know that i have had enough
you hit my limit, and i changed
i'm much too tough, like jerky in
the hands of teething babies

whatever is whatever
do you sense the carelessness?

honestly,
i feel powerless
like a meteorologist
who mispredicts
and makes a wish
to change the weather
to fix his predicament

he can't deal with it,
but i am different
i don't run away
from how i feel

acceptance of rejection's
my best option

i think you
think i'm rotten

i understand, and
i think that's valid
my mind deteriorates
like week-old salad

but give it some time
even if, right now,
you see no reason
to trust me

you'll come to find
that i'm an alright guy

just know that i
can feel the vibes

whatever is whatever
that, i won't deny

but, still, i want to
feel some pleasure

it's ironic how cathartic
being honest is

it's kind of nice
to say whatever's
on my mind

i guess the pleasure's mine,
but whatever is whatever,
so either way is fine

you treat me like a
red-headed stepchild

we never connected
with an umbilical cord
but, still, you managed
to cut ties

you're toxicity
is bad for me

goodbye

goodbye

goodbye

it's sad that you'll see me later
probably in no time
i have no follow through
i'm not resolute
but whatever is whatever
that, i won't deny