I prided myself in being some what of a tomboy
I didn’t sit in the house painting fingernails playing dress up in granny’s dresses n heels
I was outside getting ***** running in the fields (I got the scars to prove it) I was a girl who played like a boy
Didn’t like dresses or skirts And if you touched or looked at me wrong I would hit you where it hurts and I packed a mean punch
The oldest of the bunch so I had to learn a lot early Didn’t play with dolls cuz it was 2 girly didn’t like my curves so baggy clothes it was hobbies were riding  four wheelers, horses, turning dirt into mud
I was a girl who played like a boy
I would fish or watch my grandfather change the oil in his car rather than go play with my friends I always knew I didn’t fit in
A Mulan over Princess Peach
I don’t know how to react when I’m called pretty I'm not a girly girl I'm not the one to open up easily. But you're growing on me And I feel a desire to tell you everything. But I'm afraid that you'll leave, Just like everyone else I've been through too much To wear my heart on my sleeve. I've grown tough My emotions squeezed and confined in this shell I hide I was so unfamiliar with being a woman so life was looked at through a more masculine lens
Always in survival mode I know what it’s like to do hard things I fantasize about what it’s like to be soft
To not worry,
To be calm
to relax my shoulders
unclench my jaw
To let my hair down blow in the wind enjoy the sun beaming off my skin Skin-ful of scars I AM woman both stubborn and wild. But even wild things can be tamed 😌 Not the drama queen I have no need to be seen attention seeking has never been my thing but I want you to see me…. The real me Pass the mask that hides my interior. The passion that hides behind the toughness that’s waiting
to be found. The hopeless romantic who needs a push A sign to know it’s authentic A nudge in the right direction You wit it? I’m a tomboy and I’m not changing I love being comfortable in my skin just want to be something I’ve never been soft, quiet, and pretty
Can you help me? Cuz I’m SCARED
It's just so hard to love again when my heart is so worn out.
I promise I'll try but please forgive me if I have doubts.