They called my name and wore it thin, A borrowed cloth against my skin. Each word I spoke, each hand I shook, Felt stolen from some braver book, A mask too tight to fit within.
Applause became a kind of curse, Each cheer, a verse I must rehearse. Smile, nod, and hide the hollow eyes, Clutch gilded trophies with dry sighs While doubt wrote chapters even worse.
I learned to laugh, to play along, To hum their praises like a song. But every crown sat loose and wrong, As if theyβd catch me before long, A jester faking he belongs.
And when the night stretched sharp and black, I traced the cracks along my back. This borrowed life, this patchwork skin A quiet fraud, too loud to win, Too full of ghosts to send them back.
Yet here I stand, unmasked, unmade, A tattered soul they can't evade. I own the cracks, I claim the scar, I wander listless, yet still I spar I am the blade they never stayed.