It takes a while for me to get there, But that doesn't mean I won't.
It took some time for me to learn to read it The subtext between the lines, The looks, the fake smiles But now I can see it.
I see you for who you are And who you were, And I can see now Behind your smiles The way you see me.
I am angry Because you lied to me. Because you still pretend we're friends Like you'd die for me When you prefer my absence to my company But didn't decide to let me know.
Instead You found a fault you could exploit A guilty, shameful moment, a moment I slipped You could have forgiven And instead you let every little thing that remained Pour out onto me.
All of the lies got too much The uncomfortable lack of love So you said it was the last straw And you will blame the desolation On my mistakes.
But I see it now Rereading the chapters of our history, The moments I felt a minor mystery Speedbumps I painted over, glittering Because I thought that's all they were.
Now I see the signs on those old highway roads, And that this was one exit ramp of many we've passed before I'm glad we finally went our own ways I'm glad I see it now, that it was you standing in the way.
It wasn't my fault. It isn't my fault, the way that you felt, when you didn't tell me.
It wasn't my fault. It isn't my fault, the way I was hurt by the guilt you pushed onto me.
******* for making me think it was.
Thank you for the times you built me up.
And ******* for ripping it all apart, And for making me do it with my own hands.