i see a smile and i smile back  

but it doesn't

show

doesn’t show that i’m breaking  

i don’t let them know  

the stuff that i’m facing  

i pretend i’m okay but...  

i’m fractured  

deep cracks through my soul  

messy inside  

but “look she’s got it all together”  

people are even jealous of me  

“look how happy she is”  

“she’s got life good”  

no one hears the voices in my head  

the tears i cry alone in my bed  

they don’t know the battles i’m fighting silently  

the war that is happening in the world  

the world where no one has been  

except me  

and oh, i wish they knew,  

maybe they’d understand  

i’d get some help and stop cutting  

but for right now  

i’d love to see their faces...  

when i erupt  

and everything is found out  

when they suddenly see  

this girl is deteriorating inside  

because i just wanna hide  

and by hide i mean...  

never come back.
  
disappear and then they'll know


it wasn't really me  

smiling at them.