Pain was the day noon and night
Crushing debilitating crippling pain
Froze my thoughts
Froze my vision
So I sat like a doll
Staring at You
With only your words and only your scent

Did you love me
Or just my Mask
The one I wore to funerals and Dusty Crowds
Did you see what I was
What I really am
Or did you only see what you wrote about me
Did you only truly see me in the end
And felt repulsed and ran to the forest fires

Or maybe you loved me but never knew it was love
You had been taught it was Naivete
You had painted love
The brightest colours, thunders of red blue and purple
And then You felt, with me, the delicate pinks, the subtle yellows, the soft mauve

We had a quiet mornings, boring noons and talkative nights
3 second fights, 2 second apologies and hours of poetry, days of mutual gazing
Then the ominous stepped in, Crazy and Dramatic
Too much for me, too much for my heart and maybe I didn't understand back then
Too much for You too
I Reacted not knowing how to act
I was a child
You Reacted not Aware You were a Boy
And We sat on the mines, bidding time,
Torn between wanting to Stare at the begrudged heart and The pregnant Souls
And Then I could see the End and You did too, didn't you
And you took a Serpentine Road
and I took off leaving my Wing where we sat

He didn't leave a part of home
I left a lot

And Now I sit with Sand, Air and Water
And that's all it matters even if I don't