I remember I was at a friend’s party, drinking & smoking ****
It was also the first time I used speed
I decided to go home, I knew I shouldn’t drive
But I did, it was a lovely evening around five
I know I shouldn’t go over the speed limit, but I wanted to go home quickly
Because I started feeling rather sickly
I became distracted when I got a message on my phone
It was a second, & then all of a sudden, I hit something that felt like a large stone
I looked back in the mirror & there was a blooded body on the road
I raced off because I knew I would be in trouble, a shitload
I get home turn on the news, nothing, maybe it was the speed, it was an hallucination
And maybe my soul won’t be cast down to damnation
The next day my nightmare began
The **** has hit the fan
They are saying it was a hit & run
A mother & Father cry for their dead son
I have never been so confused, so scared in all my life
It’s like I'm balancing on the tip of a knife
Dear Lord, what have I done?!
I get on my knees & pray
The guilt starts to eat away
He had a name, Michael, i know for my sins I must pay
As the remorse has me enslaved
So with all the money I saved
And with a note sent to Michaels parents admitting my sin
I put the tight noose around my neck; it feels itchy against my skin
Can I really go through with this?
Just one kick & ill go into the eternal abyss
I have to do it, I may be young, but I know you can't live with so much guilt
It eats away & you begin to slowly wilt
After a few deep breaths, I kick the chair
Its not like in the movies, was my thought as I struggled midair
My eyes blur & everything is starting to fade
I then turned my mind on all of the misdeeds I've made
Thoughts & memories of my family as I succumb into the nothingness
My soul starts to depart as I slowly lose consciousness
I start to feel good; I begin to relax & no longer afraid
I know the dept can never be repaid
Now that I'm decease
I hope the guy’s parents find some peace.