i drink a coffee the way a wound bleeds warm beneath my skin its heat bites at my palms a reminder of something that once beat too loud that was swallowed in the calm that comes after the storm
they say the room leans into silence a soft presence that fills in blanks barely there and kind of everywhere clinging to places no one dares to touch
my girlfriend once asked if i ever wanted the world to feel it my heat beneath the calm the quiet fire that burns low waiting for the right moment to go wild if i ever wanted to break something solid glass bone or a fragile line
i smiled at her slow and uneven like a ribbon unwinding in the wind i wasn't ready to give her an answer the ground beneath me stirred a ripple of something getting ready to break the quiet before the earthquake
i know rage
how it rises like smoke spewing from wet wood a scream tangled in tears you can't hide a fist swelling thick with heat only to roll back into itself settling like ash
but i also know silence deep and dependable like the roots of a big tree twisting beneath the earth keeping strong against the storm kindly asking to keep off
it echoes in me kind of a reminder this too will pass and when it does what remains will not be shaken
and i think there's a slant to the world a tilt faint but undeniable where everything feels kind of out of sorts like a burning mess π