Our song..
We listened together…
It still knows our name
It remembers everything
The way you looked at me
The way we debated..
which right turn to take!
The way we sang it together
and now when I listen to it
its like
its trying to pull your ghost out of me.

First line..
Takes me back to the car
Your hands on the wheel
my hands on your lap
Second line?
I feel sick
So sick.. not even in a poetic way
but
like I need to lie down
before those memories claw thru my body
and spill me to the floor!

You are not here
but this song is
It has stayed with me
like this stain
that I dont want to get rid of
like a wound
that hurts
but I don’t want it to heal
and this wound it hums
the way you used to breathe beside me.

I keep replaying this song
Like an idiot
Because I want this wound to hurt
Because part of me keeps thinking
If I bleed enough thru these words
you’ll crawl back in this bridge.

But, may be you never will
May be I never will…
May be we never will!

Until then
its the same chorus
the same words
the same echo
those memories …
the same ache so loud that
it makes me dizzy!

I hate this song
I hate it so much
It makes me miss you so bad
To a point
that I am nauseous …:

And yet,
I replay it
Again!