isn't the night such an abstract thing? why are you my first thought in the morning? is it possible to get so attached to a person that you've never even touched? i don't even know how to say what i feel everything i experience feels weirdly unreal yet here you are, reading this as we speak i think you've figured out that my personality isn't for the weak would you find it strange if i wished that i was able to change the way that you look at yourself so you could adore yourself like how i would? maybe i'm just another hopeless romantic using poetry as an escape, my words chaotic just like everything i do, although i try to refuse how does it feel to be my muse?