for the way i shrink inside myself
like i wasn't meant to take up space;
that even though you held me tight
i still slip through the cracks in my mind.

i wish i could rest without dreaming,
sleep without waking,
and erase myself so gently
that no one would notice.

but you would—
and that's the only thing keeping me here.

i wished to never be, to not exist;
no weight to bear, no love to miss.
but down the line i wished for more—
that if i fade, you'd shed no tears.

so,





𝘪'𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨.