“I Can’t Do This Scene”

By Morning Star, April 2023

I have to go.
Just one more try—
Take a world of trying… why?

When nowhere feels like rest
And she is gone
And I can’t speak—
Not even hear the angry feet.

I'm so hurt inside
But I can’t shout.
Can’t tell.
Even though it burns within,
I just can't do it.
I just can’t try.

I'm so alone inside—I cry.
There’s no one there.
No one to help.

My chest is heavy,
Tight with pain.
I’m so tired.
I just want to scream—
But there’s no one there.
No way out.

I can’t do this on my own.
All I want is to be left alone.
I just can't do it anymore.
I want to hide away
And never be seen.

I’m sorry...
I can't do this scene.

I can’t go back
To being afraid—
Of not knowing
If I’ll be safe.

I don’t believe in me at all.

It’s harder this time—
Because I know
How hard
I fell.

And I can’t go back there.
I can’t be her again.