shame
shame
shame
shame
why is it
that I feel you all day
its like every moment
your shrinking in the back of my mind
wanting me to collapse for you
but no
I absolutley  refuse to
its like the shadows
I feel ashamed that
I feel mostly gay
but I crave a man's touch
but that I feel my attraction is very different towards men
than the way that society tells me that it should be
I just feel so much shame still
that I am so different than others
and while I am working so so hard
on loving and accepting myself
the shame aspect comes up
it feels so hard
so I coddle myself in my shame
and try to embrace it
knowing that with time
it will fade away.