When you feel cast down and despondently sad
have you ever ask yourself
how did your life get  
Get so bad?
now we are face to face little
by little, you stop loving  
Me and somehow I kept
all your hateful words looked
away in my mind
just for them to haunt me throughout my life
I suddenly cried why my heartfelt it already died  
How did are love get like this?
You have this look on your face
without a trace of love  
ever came your way and you gave me all blame  
forgetting you is a hard thing for me today
Why you walked away
with no shame at all for what you  gave to me
do not look for me I cried
with the pouring out cried rain
For all this pain to go away
for I should have already forgotten you
my pain is like it is new
years had passed us by
you had gone on with your life
but mine is still locked away with you  
the wind that crackles in my mind
like a hurtful rhyme of the dark  
the night is what you gave my life  
A pain that has not held
the hurtful words you gave me
is still running on clockwork of you  
Of your abuse,
You are my fright night for life,
You  pass through my life like
a nasty storm that will never go away,
I'm fading don't you see
what have you given to me?
to leave me at the shore
of your broken down world
I at one time had the heart
where I have roots to grow
but you cut them all up
like dust in a rush fire,
That night we had to look
each other in the eyes
just to say our goodbye's  
Your eyes were like flames of fire
with hurtful desires,
You made my heart cold and old
where I will never let love come near
You left me scared with so much fear
It's like you are still with me
This life you gave is something
I do not want to ever put someone trough
Teach me how to remove you from my mind
I have had not seen good days
since I had met you
My nights are sleepless at all hour
If each day, each hour, I am fading
If you feel that you are destined for me
With implacable sweetness
If each day a flower grows
do you see me in spring?
do you smile with the pains
you gave me like the deep darken Sea
When will you stop
this haunting you have given me?
Lost in me as a deep dark wined.

Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery