I don't have the energy to hurt over you anymore
It's only been three days
And I'm more exhausted than I ever knew I could be
More exhausted than completely exhausted

My heart hurts
I don't know if that's the
160 mg of caffeine I drank this morning
To help me get through the day because I only slept two hours last night
Because I was crying for five over you

Or if that's the
the way you made me hold your hand this morning
so that I wouldn't hurt myself
Just because I was talking to you face to face

Or maybe its because
You called me "Love" again over text
right after the last class of the day ended
and spun me into yet another
anxiety attack, just by existing and calling me a term of endearment

I don't have the energy to hurt over you anymore
but I'm letting myself
I'm texting you, and I don't know why
But it's only been three days and I am so SO exhausted